I lose my breath again
Sifting through memories
Rapidly lost,
Slowly gained.
They skitter
Like mice underfoot
Avoiding, scampering,
Running from grasping hands and dancing feet.
Run, little mice.
You’ll soon be lost to the trap of decay,
Too lost to find your way back.


End of the Hiatus

It’s time for me to rejoin things.

I’ve begun writing poetry again, and reading a lot again, so I’m ready to pop up here again.

I’ve reinvented myself. Watch the corners. You wouldn’t want to trip.

How To Keep Writing?

I have large periods of time when I don’t feel like a writer. More specifically, I have large periods of time when I don’t want to be a writer at all. I can’t help it. It’s usually in reaction to big emotional shocks and times of stress. It’s linked to disappointment and disillusionment.

The thing is, writing is in my blood. Writing sits in the joints between my arms and wrists, in the joints between each individual finger bone. It breathes in my ear from the depths of my soul. There’s no way to avoid it. It claws and it howls, gnashing its teeth to remind me every moment that I don’t write that I’m missing something.

So the key to how to keep writing, even when you don’t want to do it? Just keep writing. Even when you think no one cares, when your books are unread, when you’re penning down thoughts and scenes for the void. Just Keep Writing. Keep writing, even when your compass is broken and you hate the world because clearly the world has betrayed you. The words will save you. Just keep writing.

No, In Fact, You Should Not Write For Free — Discover

“If your work has value to anyone, then it should have value for you, and you should be at the front of the line to receive that value, because you’re doing the work.”

via No, In Fact, You Should Not Write For Free — Discover


My Comment:

Absolutely true! We’re told on a regular basis to lower our work’s value, so it’s a difficult balance to strike between being paid fairly and being paid at all. If we don’t value our work, though, who will?

The Process Of Fleshing Out Characters

Characters are what make or break a story. They drive the plot forward. You breathe life into your work through your characters. They are your bread and butter.

So what are they? For some, characters are individuals they create from scratch. Every detail is well thought out and designed. Every word and phrase is pondered over, sweated over, stressed over. Then there are others, like myself, who have a cast in their head. It’s only a matter of getting to know your characters and figuring out how they fit into each different story.

I’m of the opinion that writers and artists tap into other worlds and transcribe what’s already there sometimes. Obviously this isn’t the case for everyone, and this may not be a common belief.

So how do you flesh them out?

Here are five questions you can ask your characters, or answer with your characters in mind in order to know/design your characters better. In fact, the same questions you find to get to know strangers and form a bond are the questions you can ask your characters.

  1. If you could change anything about the world, what would you change? Why?
  2. If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? Why?
  3. What do you feel is your greatest strength and why? How do you use your strength on a daily basis?
  4. What is your ultimate goal in life?
  5. Without naming the superficial aspects (name/job/etc.), who are you?

Happy writing, everyone! Do your characters’ responses surprise you?

Personal Tarot Reading – 12/13/17

So in the interest of beginning the tarot portion of my blog (labeled in the category Journey to Apokalypsis), I’ll start with a personal reading I did for myself yesterday.

My personal reading for today, what I need to know, is that I’m holding myself back out of fearing myself and fearing that I’ll make my situation worse if I move forward. I’m being guided in my transition from one state of mind/being to another. Even though I fear myself, as well as the transition I’m making, I’m doing it regardless and sharing my ideas with others, and getting out of my old molds in order to grow.